Today, I took a leave from work. Not because of any appropriate reason but because I have been quite irresponsible for the past days. and today I'm taking the day off because the truth is I dont feel like I'm quite myself today. I am disheartened, tired, confused and feeling miserable. I know its a no good attitude, NEGATIVITY... I guess I'm just tired. very tired of the many disappointments that I have been experiencing in the past. I am tired with my situation in the office. Sometimes I don't feel happy doing my job. It's like I am not doing any good at all. I feel unappreciated and I know that need to look at my job as something that I do for the Lord.That it is something I need to for His glory and not mine.
One thing that upsets me is my business, lately, I have been exerting my efforts but they dont seem to make any impact or bear any fruit. Maybe Im not doing it smart enough. maybe I have been exerting too much efforts but all these are in vain because they have no direction.
Because these two i feel so strained, so exhausted and yet i am disheartened because it seems like its always not enough. in fact, its always lacking... i just pray that the Lord will answer me soon, or maybe i have not prayed for it. Maybe i have not asked for it.
And theres my heart, here it is again. I just cant get over this love I have for this person. Lord forgive me if i keep on forgetting the plans you have for me over this erratic emotions.
Lord, if this is not for me, take it O Lord. I surrender everything to you.
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